What’s This I Find?

You are suddenly leaving personal notes on IM? Very not you. Tell me it’s about me.


So of course I go and research the song lyrics and video. Not luck finding a good video (didn’t search hard enough, but found the lyrics…)




I can’t remember anything

Can’t tell if this is true or dream

Deep down inside I feel the scream

This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me

I’m waking up, I cannot see

That there’s not much left of me

Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please god, wake me

Back in the womb it’s much too real

In pumps life that I must feel

But can’t look forward to reveal

Look to the time when I’ll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me

Just like a wartime novelty

Tied to machines that make me be

Cut this LIFE off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please god, wake me

Now the world is gone I’m just one

Oh god, help me

Hold my breath as I wish for death

Oh please god, help me

Darkness imprisoning me

All that I see

Absolute horror

I cannot live

I cannot die

Trapped in myself

Body my holding cell

Landmines has taken my sight

Taken my speech

Taken my hearing

Taken my arms

Taken my legs

Taken my soul

Left me with life in hell



I don’t what to make out of the two excerpted lines.

Good… that it’s indicative of how you are feeling right now and I’m not alone pining away. Wishing for death, eh? If that’s the literal truth, then you definitely deserve feeling – at least ONCE in your life – that feeling that is haunting you now.

Bad… coz you wish to wake up. Well, yeah, I’m being unfair coz I’m praying to wake up as well from this nightmare you put me in. To hell with being fair! When have you ever been fair to me?!

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